Nate just took my measurements and my "fat" pictures. It was very depressing.

It's not that I don't look at myself or now how I look, it's just the awareness that it really is THAT bad. Nate kept telling me I was beautiful the whole time, but it wasn't hitting home in that moment.

Gag. O well, maybe this is what I was missing all the other times I tried to loose weight. Cold Hard Evidence of what I've done to my body.

Those pics are goin' on the fridge! But coming down when people come over ; D

*Sigh*

I wrote all them down on my PFA packet, so I'll check them again in a month. and the scale in two weeks.
I keep trying to think of the best "Start date" for success but all of today I've been wondering . . . why not now? Christmas won't be that bad and I'll make it through New Years and my nephew's b-day. My sister's baby shower and my birthday right? Oy, let's hope. At least then I'll know that if I can make it through the up-coming month I can make it through anything right? And all the cheating on less "yummy" food will make holding out on the holidays less worth it. True.

So I think my hearts in it. It's at least wanting to try.